Hippocreep

Beep beep…beep beep…

Me talking to myself :“ouh, it’s from her, I guess it’s about time now”

*press read*

The message read

“Hey, let’s be friend, is that okay for you?”

“I knew it”, thinking to myself

“Will breaking up solve your problem?”

“Nop, it’s just I need someone here”

“I know I can’t be there for you right now but you have to be strong “

“I know but right now I can’t commit to it but I want the relationship”

“What you mean by that? If you can’t commit, then what’s the purpose for us to be in relationship?”

“Sorry, I really can’t commit to it”

“Then what about our relationship?”

“Let’s be friend”

“Okay, since you decided, then let’s be friend”

Oh well, so it all ended. I can’t believe we actually drag the whole thing until now. It’s not a one or two days thing but it’s been going on for some time.

My friends asked me whether I was sad about the break up or not because she and I were together for almost 3 years already. In fact, March the 1st will be our 3rd anniversary. But, strangely, I felt more relief than sad. I did feel sad but the sadness went away after few days. My friends said maybe I’ve been hanging on myself in this relationship alone all the while and I was feeling tired already. So when this ended, I’ll for sure feel relief. I guess it’s true. I feel like I can breath again.

Well, this year will be a good year for me because I have let go one of my biggest burden of 2010.

Settling my relationship issue with her is my 2011 resolution. I guess I’m the fastest person who achieve the resolution in just few days into the new year. Ha Ha

I actually felt more light weight now

Happy 2011 people. I’m back!!!!

J